A star stories ♥

Argh. You stucked in my head like, grrrrrr :(

Hey mas, what do you think of being there and see mee walked away in front of you? Don’t you think I was valuable enough to meet?

I’ve been waiting for the chance of seeing you, you don’t even know me..

You don’t even see me, do you? Goooooosh, I hate this but really.. my head is full of you and your thingy.

If I could choose, I want to go and talk in front of your face then said, “Hey mister! I’m in front of your face now.. Say a thing, please!” But nah, I’m killing myself by doing that.

One package in you, I really need to know you better :-(

Is there any other chance? I hope there will.

People

The school will be started soon, and I still don’t know exactly how I could take a decission like this. The city, is pretty far, really. If you go there by bus, it’ll take about 19 hours to reach the city which I’m moving in to.

At first, I really am feeling fine about this. As I know, there are lots of friends of mine going there together.. there are people that I can count on. Elementary school friends, high school friends, sibling.. really, I am not alone.

I don’t know why this feelings haunting me, and I really don’t feel good about this. Imagine, I’m beeing alone in the middle of a foreign city.. doing things alone, just by myself. No friends, even just to chat. Oh, what kind of world that is!

Hh, it’s good for me to be accompanied even just a month. I really need her, truely madly deeply. I can’t imagine if my mom is not there around me for some time, until I know I’m ready.

People, could come and go. Family, stays for ever.. just death and God’s will that could separate the family bond.

If they would leave me, why am I supposed to be there praising for their kindness. I just have to be kind to those new people, being a person just like I did. If they just go being friends with some other people alike, well I’m different with them, so what. I don’t want to fit you, then change myself. I promised not to change a thing of it. I’ll take the good ones, why bother with the bad ones?

Maybe it could be my bad, for thinking badly about other people.. but I’ve read this kind of scenario, and I just know. What I am doing there, to improve myself to be a more mature young-woman, educationaly and personaly. I still have one mission to be accomplished.. two, exactly.

Astaghfirullah, forgive God for being so rude. I don’t know what’s going on with me these days. I’m out of my mind.

All I wanted, is just they being fine with me. Just fine, I don’t need them to be very nice to me. What am I, however. Well, I’ll just try being me in front of those people who already knew me.

Just like chemical theory, if there is an action then there’ll be a reaction.

I’ll try to improved, what is in their mind so they hate me like I’m an evil, in fact I’m not. It’s their issue, but I’ll try to figure out.

I’ll be there for anyone who needs me, I’ll try.

If they are not there for me, then I don’t know what it is.. But sure, I’ll be fine eith it. At least, I know they are not alone. Alone is the WORST feeling EVER.

I’ll never be alone, there is God.. there are angels, there are my family.

I’ll make friends, tons of em. Just wish best best luck for me.

Still. I’m not feeling good. :’(

B Day

Oh it’s not my birthday.. It is the most boring day, today.

Actually, I had plans but none of em accomplished. Well, what a day. Aaaaargh………. :(

I’m leaving this monday. I am really bored in this jakarta city. I need a new air, which is not so polluted like jakarta’s air. I think I’m gonna vomitting for being bored today.

No sms, no emails, no notifications, no calls.

Well, I fell asleep when I wrote this.. I woke up from a 2 hours sleep, and thankfully I feel better. I’m going to see my bestfweeeeeens right away! Really do no need to feel bad.. so the B day turned off, say hello to F day..

Fine day :)

Frecell Game

I love playing Frecell, but I got stuck at Game #23932

I’ll play it later, I want to watch the Summer Scent Korean Drama at KBS World.

Happy Watching!

PS : Oh, I just updated my iTunes.. it really is getting better after updated. Loadingnya lebih cepet dan tampilan nya lebih keyeen ♥

Other's

wuaaa, I’ve been seeing another tumblr user’s page and I am jealous! They do have a really nice view, huhu I want it too :’(

Oh, I almost forgot.. I’m going to D.I.Y at 9 August 2009, insya Allah.

Hopefully, there’s a chance to have some fun doing what I want to do : reach my dream. Semangat terooos!